The daily demands of being a stay at home mom of 5, homeschooling, and a teething baby are hard sometimes. Some days I go to bed feeling accomplished and thankful for the day we had. Other days I go to bed feeling completely undone. The past few weeks in particular have felt like a crazy combination of accomplishments and let downs.
I’ve been beyond blessed this month. I’ve seen God bring family and friends together in amazing ways! But I’ve also seen such brokenness in my family and I have spent more days than I should mourning the passing of certain seasons of my life. Mourning friendships that have changed, holidays that are no longer spent with loved ones, and watching those I love suffering. When looking at my beautiful Christmas tree full of memories, if I look deeper than the twinkling lights and the ornaments, my heart hurts. This season can be hard.
Today I woke up feeling particularly glum. Like most people I often forget to reach out because I don’t want to put my burdens onto others. I often fall back into this “tighten up your shoe laces and keep going” attitude. It works half of the time. The other half, I find myself irritable and negative. I find myself losing direction and just living to get through to another day.
Today I had a full schedule like usual. My morning went as follows: Wake up, feed children, dogs, cows, cat, and myself. Inhale coffee, quick shower,get dressed and put on makeup. Try to unload and reload the dishwasher without baby climbing into the dishwasher. Start some laundry. Do school with children, feed children again and somehow make time to write blog while the baby naps. All the while thinking about the fact that for the second night in a row I have to keep the baby up way past her bedtime because of a 7:30 MRI appointment for my oldest who’s foot has been bothering her.
And as I sat in the computer chair staring at the screen praying God would give me something to say to encourage others, I just felt utterly discouraged and defeated.
But then my phone went off. A dear friend messaged me because she had a birthday present to drop off for the baby and then she said she was coming over tonight to watch the kids for me. I literally broke down in tears! God through this precious sister reached through that phone and gave me the biggest hug! And a blog too at that! That is so like him! He is so good to me!
Friends, I really needed to be reminded today that God never intended us to carry all of our burdens alone. First, we should be sharing our troubles with Him. Invite Him into your pain, your hurt, and your weaknesses. Secondly, He gave us each other for a reason! God uses our sisters in Christ to be His hands and feet sometimes. We need to be willing to share our burdens with each other and willing to accept help when we need it! It’s obviously a lesson I’m still learning. And in my case, I needed someone to step into my life and offer help without me asking! Thank you, friend. You know who you are. And thank you Lord, for always being faithful, even when I lose my way.