I have a natural inclination to trip over my own feet, I miss stairs on a regular basis. My knees are covered in scars from a childhood chopped full of clumsiness. I do not go many days, without discovering new bruises from middle of the night bathroom trips and all of those missed stairs. Almost every dish I own is chipped. I miss my mouth when eating or drinking quite often. It has become a part of who I am and over the years, I have learned to laugh at myself and keep lots of super glue and stain removers close.
But, there are other tendencies of mine that are less laughable. For example, how I get all worked up if I’m running late or how manic I become if my house is messy and company is coming over. I lose my temper with my girls all the time. I can over analyze things a lot too. I constantly worry about what others think of me and second guess myself daily.
As a christian, being a clutz is easy to accept but losing my focus on Christ over and over again brings me to my knees in frustration all of the time. I remember thinking as a younger me, that it would be easier to be like Jesus as I grew older and wiser. However, as I have grown in maturity and years, it has become very apparent that the process of becoming more like Jesus is not an easy one. It involves a lot of recognizing my weaknesses. It is chopped full of realization of how deep and big my sin is and how desperately I need Jesus and His grace!
I was reading in 1 Corinthians chapter one the other day with my morning coffee and came across some pretty encouraging verses.
Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things-and the things that are not-to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God-that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: “Let him who boasts boast in the Lord.” 1 Corinthians 1:26-31
It seems that God has the propensity to call the weak, the unwise, and the foolish. He chooses hot messes like me on purpose! And why you might ask? It’s who He is! It’s His love and majesty wrapped up in a glorious picture of the Gospel of grace. He gives us godly wisdom that makes the world’s wisdom fall flat on it’s face. He shows His power and might through the mouths of babes and through the humble and lowly, His glory is revealed. He has chosen us, imperfections and all to be His and to testify to His faithfulness, power and grace. Yes, there is still much refining to be done in me but we can be certain that God will use our many failings to show others what an Awesome God He truly is!