At the End of the Day

Lately, each night when I climb into bed, I think, “Where did the day go? It went by so fast!” And, I hope that what I did during the day was for something bigger than myself, that it was for Jesus. Psalm 90 boomerangs off my mind, touching the echo of my heart and there it stays.

“So teach us to number our days, That we may gain a heart of wisdom.” Psalm 90:12

I lay in bed and I question what matters most to me. I think about where my time is being placed, falling so short at times. Empty minutes can be stolen so quickly. I try to consider the emphasis of eternal values in my daily choices. Am I doing okay, Lord?

Not in a works-based kind of way, but in a way where my heart rests in the One who created it, and longs to align with His ways, because He teaches me what matters. Because He is holy and perfect and loving.

Time is slipping away. So fast.

“Oh, satisfy us early with Your mercy, That we may rejoice and be glad all our days!” Psalm 90:14

My ministry right now is loving my husband and pouring into our children. Our little ones who need Jesus and the not so little anymore who need Jesus. The latter clearly define how fast the time really goes.

“Let Your work appear to Your servants, And Your glory to their children.” Psalm 90:16

At the end of the day, when I am exhausted, and cannot fill one more cup for a thirsty child, do one more load of laundry, or listen to one more person talk to me, I wonder, am I letting the moments escape? Lord, remind me to make them count.

“And let the beauty of the Lord our God be upon us, And establish the work of our hands for us; Yes, establish the work of our hands.” Psalm 90:17



One of my seven little darlings is the serious type. He matter of factly states the truth and because he is only four, he is just adorable. Recently, one of his older brothers got baptized and while we were talking about that event coming up, the four year old says, “You know mom, he is going to need a towel and a change of clothes.” I hadn’t even thought that far at the time, but leave it to him to state the orderly facts. 

There are things in life that are very serious. You know, in an instant we could be standing before God giving an account for our life here on earth. That is so serious our eternity is at stake. For those who have not said yes to Jesus, it is very scary. Some people think its so scary they refuse to talk about it and try to push it out of their minds. 

“But they will have to give an accounting to him who stands ready to judge the living and the dead” (1 Peter 4:5).

Two serious facts stand before us, we are either going to die or Christ is going to return for us. 

“The end of all things is near; therefore be serious and discipline yourselves for the sake of your prayers”  (1 Peter 4:7).

Some things we need to take seriously.

If you haven’t made the choice to give Him your life, where you are at right now, thank Him for dying for you and tell Him you want to live for Him. In a moment, we will be standing face to face with God. If you have the hope of salvation it’ll be seriously glorious.

Happy 17 Years, Hun. Love, Carter.

Ever since I can remember, my hunny has occasionally called me “Carter.” He is a silly, fun guy. He is a man who I look up to, who takes care of me and our seven children well, is selfless and hardworking, and who I love being with. Thinking about how God made him who he is, makes me tear up.

Each year on our anniversary, I think about God’s redemption. My hunny and I know about redemption and brokenness, because we come from a long line of it. We don’t claim to have it altogether, that is for sure. There is no such thing as a long line full of the straight and narrow anyway. Sinners abide in loving, God-centered homes too. We all have brokenness, it’s just a part of life on earth.

As Believers, we know what Christ did for us though. We have acknowledged His sacrifice and have given our lives over to the One Who gave the ultimate sacrifice. We have the Holy Spirit in us and we are on this walk of sanctification. At times it is so difficult, dealing with my own heart issues especially, but I love being on this walk with my hunny.

Here, Jesus goes in and shines a light in the brokenness. He places love where love belongs and breaks up the darkness. He redeems the long lines of junk, the sad things, and replaces them with joy and peace and a lightness that makes life, LIFE.

We know this. Where we come from, satan has tried to keep the darkness covering over the people. But, all it takes is a little flicker and the whole room is lit.

“When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12

He has called us out of the darkness and into His marvelous light.

Lord, let our flickers be abundantly filled with Your grace, Your love, and Your hope. Help us to care to be obedient to You, with a holy fear that shows a serious commitment to follow You. Help us to flicker brightly, so that Your marvelous light is shone in the lives of those who haven’t seen what it is like to walk in Your light. Thank You for Your redemption in our lives, for redeeming our brokenness and replacing it with love, where love belongs.

Happy 17 Years, Christopher. Love, Carter.

Remind Me Again

Sometimes I feel like a happy broken record with my kids, reminding them of God’s promises over and over. Peter must have felt this way too. He reminded the people of who they were in Christ and the importance of checking themselves to see if they indeed had salvation, eternal life. And then he did it again.

“Therefore I intend to keep on reminding you of these things, though you know them already and are established in the truth that has come to you. I think it right, as long as I am in this body, to refresh your memory…” (2 Peter 1:12).

We are to persistently and earnestly check our own hearts, to know that we know, that we are saved because it is the main point and purpose to our lives here on earth and for forever. Whether we have a relationship with Jesus, we acknowledge Him as Lord and Savior who died for our sins, and profess that He is King, is more important than anything.

“Therefore, brethren, be all the more diligent to make certain about His calling and choosing you; for as long as you practice these things, you will never stumble; for in this way the entrance into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ will be abundantly supplied to you.”

Peter knew the importance of being saved and he intended on reminding the people as long as he was alive. We all need to check our hearts often and keep reminding those around us of Jesus, of the ultimate love and sacrifice, of salvation through Him, the one Who gave it all.

Who Do You Identify With?

We all want to find our identity. We can find our identity in things like religion, clubs, groups, communities, and even family. A label over us eases the cry of our heart. God gave us a cry in there, you know.

It is the search for love, reassurance, camaraderie, and belonging. We might think that if we have an identity to pour into, maybe we can change our little part of the world. That feels good. We all long to belong, and long to express ourselves, to be made known to others. Hence social media, a place to express who we are, to be made known.

But, unless we are placing our identity in Jesus, it is all for nothing.

God put these longings inside us for a reason. He created us to have a relationship with Him! God, Himself knows every part of us, and He wants us to know Him.

“Now this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent” (John 17:3).

God sending His only Son to die for us, to make a way for us to go to heaven is such good news, the best news that we could ever, ever hear! When we give our life to Jesus, it is replaced with a brand new life, true hope, eternal security, and a beautiful, meaningful identity. It is secure happiness!

When our identity is finally rooted in truth, it is as if a light bulb illuminates every area of our life. And guess what?? God is still in the business of saving people, drawing them into a relationship with Him.

“but in your hearts sanctify Christ as Lord. Always be ready to make your defense to anyone who demands from you an accounting for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and reverence” (1 peter 3:15).

People are thirsty for God. They are looking for something to place their identity in. Let us be ready with gentleness to tell the good news of our secure hope, an identity lost in Truth.

The Complete Cure for the Groaning of this World

The blood of Jesus speaks more of a word over me than anything. At times, I am just looking for a word from Him and He always comes through, what He did on the cross for me is all I need to remember. He pours heaps of peace over my soul and it is well again.

I sought God and said, “Please lift the weight off my soul.” It is not just one burden, but all of the trials around me. It gets to me. My glass is usually half full, that’s just my peaceful nature I suppose. But, the chaos and sad things of living in a world in turmoil swirl from every direction. Thoughts spinning circles in my head and they say “get off technology,” “but, don’t put your head in the sand.” Hurricane Florence, the death of a loved one, a cancer diagnosis… the spinning through our brains, it can all be too much. Wild fires, suicide, trafficking, persecution, devastation unfolding at every corner. The news, it can be perplexing, and scary and leave us feeling hopeless.

We live in a time where creation and even our souls groan while we wait for Jesus.

“For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the children of God;” Romans 8:19

Yet, the blood of Jesus is always there and it speaks more a word over me than anything. So, He reminded me of this hope. We need to focus on this hope. The hope found in the blood of Jesus who made a way for what is to come. The hope we have of a future being in the presence of the Holy God Almighty, where every loose end is tied and every bit of glory is revealed.

“and not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the first fruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly while we wait for adoption, the redemption of our bodies” Romans 8:23

So, I sought Him. And He met me there, like always and He filled my heart with peace. And it is well with my soul. For when I look to the living Hope, where the blood of Jesus was poured out, I know that while we groan to see God’s glory in all of its fullness, for now we need to be here among the chaos and the trials. But, it’s okay. The news that swarms us, the sad things that we see from a distance or that come our way, will be nothing compared to the glory that is coming, because of the precious blood of Jesus.

Is My Effort Worth It?

Sometimes, I feel as though there isn’t enough of me to go around. Just in my house alone, I work hard and it is still impossible to keep up with all of the needs of running a household of nine. And there are lots of others outside of my house, who I love and I want to be involved in their lives. In this stage of my life, I have to lay it all down because in my strength, I can barely hold anything up.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

2 Corinthians 12:9

Most days, I feel stretched like a wriggled up hose with a kink in it wondering if even traces of Jesus are getting through. But, when I feel this weak, I can know that His power is made perfect. The hose is spraying far and wide.

We all have different day to day ministries and we can all wonder if our efforts are worth the blood, sweat, and tears. Keep stepping forward, friends. When you are feeling weak like you can’t go on, rest in knowing that Christ’s power is made so perfect. The spray is touching beyond anything you can see and what we can’t see, that is what truly matters.

“because we look not at what can be seen but at what cannot be seen; for what can be seen is temporary, but what cannot be seen is eternal” 2 Corinthians 4:18