Loving like Jesus

Loving Like Jesus

I am learning so much about myself! I’ve only been on this foster care journey for a little over 50 days. Our first placement has been chopped full of uncharted territory! I’ve felt feelings I’ve never experienced before, I’ve dealt with so many unfamiliar and uncomfortable situations. I have seen my views of the world and my views of my home flipped upside down. My biggest struggle however has been learning how to love like Jesus.

It is easy to love an innocent baby. It is not so easy loving the parents who exposed these children to such hardship and pain. I walked into foster care feeling confident that God would use me to help not only these children, but their families as well! But, the reality has been that some people do not want to get better. Not only do they not want to change, they will hurt anyone who gets in their way.

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I find myself wrestling with my flesh. I know I should be praying for the parents who despite their many issues are still made in the image of God. I know the Bible says to “love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you.” (Matthew 5:44) But there are days when I do not want the bio parents around. There are days when I think “I” know best. The truth is I don’t, but God does.

I love these babies like they are my own. I want to be mama bear and protect them from the people who hurt and use them. I want my way! But, my way isn’t the way of the Gospel. My way does not show grace or love. My way screams out judgments on all offenses and places these parents in my heart as tried and sentenced.

If you continue to read in Matthew 5:45 it goes on to say, “{love, bless, do good, and pray} that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward have you?”

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If God can extend His love even to His enemies then so should I. As a matter of fact, before I came to know Jesus as my own Lord and Savior, I was an enemy. However, because of what Christ did for me, I no longer walk in the dark and in opposition of God the Father. It is because He loves the unlovable that today I am changed. His love changes things.

The amazing thing about being loved and loving such an amazing God is that we are able to be an extension of God’s love to others. God rewards us if we are obedient in walking in love, blessing and praying for those who for the moment are our enemies.

I have to be willing to pray for and love these families that touch my life even if my flesh isn’t “feeling” it. I’m beginning to find that even if my efforts to love these people are returned with strife, the reward of having a heart softened by the hands of God is priceless!


Fervent Love


And above all things have fervent love for one another, for love will cover a multitude of sins. 1 Peter 4:8

The word fervent in the original Greek language is ektenē (ἐκτενῆ) which means to be stretched. I don’t often think of being stretched as a pleasant thing. Being stretched to my limit often means that I am either stressed, overwhelmed, hurting, or frustrated. Being stretched in my experience is uncomfortable. Not a single one of us could say straight faced that we love feeling uncomfortable.

There are times in our christian walks where we can feel stretched by the brokenness that surrounds us. People can treat us poorly, say unkind things, and ostracize us. We can feel overwhelmed by circumstances and poor choices. We can feel defeated and hopeless. How are we as Christians suppose to respond when we are victims of other’s sins or victims of our own transgressions?

The answer is Love.

Hatred stirs up strife but love covers all sins. Proverbs 10_12

We are all broken and sinful. Every last one of us has said an unkind word about someone or has a past we don’t find comfortable shouting from the roof tops. But Jesus loves us in our mess. He didn’t ask us to clean up our acts or tell us to follow some formula for us to be good enough to be loved.

Romans 5:8 says “But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” And because Christ loves us in our mess, we are called to love others in theirs! Because of what Christ has done for us, we should be willing and ready to do the same for others. We should be willing to forgive. We need to allow God to continually stretch us to love others even when they hurt us. 1 Corinthians 13:8 says that “Love never fails.” Love outlives and outlasts all hurts and failures. Love covers a multitude of sins. Let us love the unlovable, forgive the unforgivable and shine God’s love through our lives.


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Sometimes I struggle.

Today, I struggled to not feel overwhelmed. Between a fussy baby, a messy house, and the responsibility of having to teach my four girls, I often feel pulled in a million different directions and completing tasks seems impossible.

Yesterday, I struggled with a broken heart over family illness, guilt because my girls have a very tired mama and feeling overwhelmed by the brokenness that has been brought into my home through foster care.

Tomorrow I will continue with all of these struggles and add to them bio family visits for baby, missing friendships, lack of sleep and the isolation that having a new baby brings. This season I’m in is oh so hard.


I think all too often, Christians can look at themselves struggling and think it’s a bad thing. But, I am a firm believer that struggling is not a sign of weakness, but rather a sign of faithfulness. When I look at my season of struggles, I see God. I see stepping out in faith and doing hard things because God brought me there. I see Him accomplishing His perfect plans through my imperfect obedience. I see being willing to suffer for Christ’s sake. Sacrificing myself for the sake of His love.

When my weak heart starts to feel overwhelmed, I remind myself that Jesus struggled too. Do you remember the story of Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane? Speaking to His disciples Jesus said, “My soul is deeply grieved, to the point of death”. He was so overwhelmed by what God had called Him to do that Jesus literally sweated blood! He went on to say, “My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; yet not as I will, but as You will” And through Jesus’s faithful struggle, He accomplished salvation for All who put their trust in Him.


These seeds that we sow are not sown in vain. God will use them all! We will always struggle from time to time, but the key is to struggle faithfully. If we keep our eyes on Christ and trust His will for our lives, there is no telling what He will accomplish!

Perfect Peace


You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all who’s thoughts are fixed on you. Isaiah 26:3

What words come to mind when you hear the word “Peace”? I think of words such as calm, relaxing, easy, content, at ease, and restful. But, often our lives are anything but these. Peace as the world sees it is very different than God given peace. Peace is not about freedom from the interruptions, but rather it is about the freedom to rest in them.


I am a foster mom to a sweet little baby who doesn’t sleep, a homeschooling mom of 4 precious little girls, a home maker, friend, and wife. Add to that basket two cancer diagnosis’s in my immediate family, blogging, and church. If it weren’t for baby cuddles, I don’t think I’d ever sit down! There are some days when I fall into bed. There are days where I feel physically and emotionally overwhelmed, overworked, and over spent. But the remarkable thing I’ve come to discover is that I always have enough to keep going and I am always full of peace despite whatever is touching my life.

I find that when I walk in obedience through hard places, I always come through the other side blessed and encouraged. I’m not saying that things don’t hurt. They do. I’ve cried many tears. But, none of my tears have been wasted. God has set perfect plans in place that only He knows. I can rest in knowing that His plans are good and can be trusted. Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”


So, when I stare down cancer, broken homes, home-school tantrums, crying babies, laundry piles that touch the ceiling, and every other bit and piece that may enter my life, I can know without a doubt that God is there. In confidence I trust that God will use all of it for His glory and my good. There is no other feeling I love more than knowing that God is doing His work through me. It fills me with peace, purpose, and such encouragement! It’s truly a gift.

So, let me encourage you to keep your eyes firmly set on Christ. Remember that nothing in this life rests on your shoulders alone. Ultimately, it is God who holds it all in the palm of His hand. If He allows hard things to touch us, we can trust that God will not leave us or forsake us. His plans are good. He is good. He is giving you an opportunity to shine His love. So shine sweet friends and stay focused on Him. Watch as His peace in you moves the mountains in your life and changes hearts.

Love Each Other

Jesus said, “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father_s commands and

Love isn’t always easy. Love always has a cost. But the cost of not loving is far greater than the price of obedience! Jesus commands us to love with sacrificial love. He commands us to lay down our lives in love for one another. If we do He promises that we will remain in His love, be full of complete joy and bear lasting fruit! What a promise!

Sometimes loving like Jesus hurts. It brings us to the end of ourselves and reveals how broken we really are. But, it is that brokenness that Christ willingly broke His own body for. His love is the salve that purges the infection of sin.


Sometimes, love means trust. It means trusting that God can accomplish more than we could ever imagine. Loving in this moment might feel heavy, but what we bear is but a grain of sand compared to the weight that has already been carried on the cross for the love of you and me.

It is my sincere belief that we can have joy in all circumstances, if we hold tightly to our faith and our hope in the love of Jesus Christ. He chose you. He chose me. He chose us to go, to take a step forward and bear lasting fruit.

He appointed us to love joyfully in patience, kindness and gentleness. The savior who is here right now and also standing at the edge of eternity, chose us to change the world one act of love at a time. Who can you love today?


Laying My Life Down One Bottle At A Time

Laying My Life Down One Bottle At A Time

By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down our lives for the brethren. But whoever has this worlds goods, and sees his brother in need, and shuts up his heart from him, how does the love of God abide in him? My little children, let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed and in truth.

1 John 3:16-18

I have this scripture framed in my bathroom. I’ve looked at it every day for over a year. But, this scripture means more to me today than it did 6 months ago. Today, I am living this scripture out in so much more of a real way.

I have gone from sleeping 8+ hours a night, to a broken 4-5. I cannot cook dinner without help. I cannot take a shower without help. I cannot put away laundry without help. I spend my days and my nights loving, comforting, feeding and changing a little one who is not mine. My arms and heart are constantly full, my brain fuzzy and my house a small disaster, but I am blessed. What a privilege.

Whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me.

As I take a few minutes to reflect on this crazy sleep deprived ride I have been on, I feel awe struck that God chose me to do this. As I stare at that little squished sleeping face, my heart overflows and my mind drifts to the future. Will this little one remember me? Where will this little piece of my heart be on their 3rd birthday? There are so many questions that just cannot be answered. But, even if I cannot know for certain if Peanut will have a birthday cake or be obsessed with Paw Patrol. I do know that what matters is that I love this child right here and right now. I spend my days pouring Christ’s love onto this little being, whose life up to this point has not been easy. I cannot guarantee this baby’s future will not be full of hardship…but I can kiss her little face and rock her to sleep. I can pray for her and pray for her mama. I can love this baby fiercely even if it hurts, because Christ loves me that way.

We only have one life to live and I cannot think of a better thing to die for than love. These seeds that I am planting one day will sprout. Every bottle and every tear God sees. It is the least I can do for a Savior who sacrificed much more than sleep for me.

Fostering Light

Fostering LightNever did I expect to feel the way I did when that car drove into our driveway. The caseworker walked into our home carrying the tiniest little baby I’d ever seen! My mama heart instantly jumped out of my chest, while simultaneously breaking in two. How is it possible to be so excited and so sad at the same time? I was staring into those little eyes and thinking about another mother’s heart somewhere else breaking.

I cannot begin to understand the brokenness that causes babies to be delivered to my door step. The choices made that tear families apart. But, I do understand who came to redeem those choices.

StockSnap_GMS9338LK0As I rocked this new little one to sleep in the dark, I prayed that God would redeem this. He knit this baby in its mother’s womb and has plans for them both! I have never fostered before and I can feel the weight of it all. I can feel God’s presence in these uncertainties. His presence is in this evening and in this moment. A moment orchestrated by a merciful and sovereign heavenly father and planted as a seed of faith in my heart so many years ago.

This baby that I have prayed for, I now pray over. It is an awesome, humbling and heart quaking thing. I do not know what tomorrow brings. I do not even know if I’ll get sleep tonight. But, I do know that what I am doing is important. I am shining light, His light and all of a sudden the dark room seems very bright.   mom-2208928_1920