On the 14th of December we will officially have been licensed foster parents for a whole year! It’s amazing how quickly time has passed since we started this journey. The early days of our first placement were hard for lots of reasons. There was such uncertainty on how to navigate all of the emotions and I got such little sleep! On top of that, adjusting to the new normal of visits, getting house work done and trying to still homeschool my children were all challenges that we had to figure out. It was a wild ride, but to be honest, I wouldn’t change a thing. God showed up in such big ways and I learned so much about who I am in Him!
Today’s reality is so much more predictable. The baby is scheduled and sleeps much better, homeschooling happens like it’s suppose to most days, and I’m able to keep up with my other responsibilities reasonably well. Some days I even forget that we are fostering. Loving this child as my own feels as natural as breathing air. This is our life right now and I love it!
So, imagine my surprise when we got a phone call about another child in need of a home! We are only licensed for 1 child at the moment, so it completely threw my heart into a tailspin! It was so unexpected!! Immediately, my brain and heart went into over drive. Can we make this work?! I was willing, but I won’t lie, there was some panic that set in too. And like a snap of a finger, I was reminded how broken this world is. There are babies, children, mama’s and daddy’s out there who’s worlds are falling down around them and we are called to step in and be Jesus to them. We are asked to step into the broken.
It so happened that another family stepped up and took this little charge, but yesterday knocked me back into reality. Maybe not now, but some day we may need to step into the broken once again for the sake of a little one. The first time I had no idea what I was walking into. Today, I’m very aware of how hard it is and how chaotic my life will become.
Friends, please pray that God would remind us all what it means to be like Jesus. Pray that He would open our eyes to not only our deep need for His love and mercy, but that we would be willing to step out of our comfort daily and walk in faith, even if it means walking into hard places. And friends please pray for these little children who are hurting so much. Pray that other brothers and sisters would step up and welcome these precious babes into their homes! It’s so needed! I can take one more, but I can’t take them all.